Fear

[mugglechump]

Change is such an intimidating thing. There are things in my life that I know I need to change, but I haven't because changing them is scarier than living with them. They are comfortable and familiar, even if they aren't good and they make me unhappy. I have, in the past, made disparaging comments about people I knew that had what I considered to be irrational fears. One person wouldn't cross bridges, another was afraid of birds, several wouldn't watch 'The Wizard of Oz' because of those stupid flying monkeys. I thought it was ridiculous that they allowed those fears to have such an impact on their lives but I'm not really any different. The fear of change, being alone, being noticed, being wrong - all these things have kept me from doing things in my life. I think that's why I've gotten so involved in fanfic. It's much more simple to pay attention to Draco and Ginny's lives than my own. Things in my life need to change, and it's terrifying.

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[cliodnahpfan.livejournal.com]

Oh, sweetie... I share in your fears. I was scared of being alone until I realized that I have at least 18 years before that'll truly happen (BWAH!) - plus I have my friends online. I'm not worried about anything in a romantic capacity because I've been through enough with it... though I do have my moments there, too. Crap - I haven't helped you at all!

*HUGS* anyway :D

[mugglechump.livejournal.com]

*HUGGLES* Thank you. I'm feeling less dramatic now, at least a little. Some days it just all bubbles over, ya know?