Caliga Rant

[mugglechump]

Part of me already regrets posting this because simply by acknowledging the drama, I'm feeding it. But I'm tired and frustrated, and I feel like it. So here we go.

This post is ALL ABOUT ME. Call me self-centered. Whatever.

I don't know all the whos and whats and wheres and whys of the drama that's been going on. I catch little bits and pieces from vague LJ posts or random conversations. This is not an invitation to explain the drama to me. Frankly, I don't really care what it's all about. I'm sure everyone involved has, or truly believes they have, a legitimate gripe of some kind. I'm equally sure that everyone has been swayed by their emotions and maybe they haven't always behaved in the most mature/responsible/considerate/whatever manner. I'm reasonably sure that most of the issues started as petty things that didn't need to escalate into the drama-o-rama that's taken place in the last few weeks. I like most of the people I know to be involved. I say most not because there is anyone I dislike, but because there are a couple folks I have never spoken to. Anyway, bottom line - I don't care. What I care about is how the drama affects me. See above re: self-centered.

I enjoy Caliga. Seriously. I've had a really good time for the most part. I've made some friends that I didn't have before. I've expanded my ability to write on the fly. I like my characters. There have been a couple little things here or there that have frustrated, but - call me crazy - it's a game. It's not that big a deal. I'm a big girl, with big girl panties, and I can handle it.

I have a real hard time understanding why other people can't. This is not a personal indictment against anyone. As I said, I like all the folks I know who've been part of the drama. That's part of my confusion. Generally speaking, these are not reactionary or spiteful individuals. I just don't get it.

As frustrating as whatever beefs people have had with each other are, I have to say that for me (and I expect for the other people who have remained outside the dramasphere) it's worse. Why worse? Because for reasons entirely outside my influence and control, I'm left with open plotlines, uncertainty as to who will still be around to scene with in coming days (making it hard to plan alternative plotlines), a dwindling number of people that my characters would interact with, and the disappointment of having people I like no longer around to 'play'.

Now, I'm not mad at anyone who has left/is planning to leave/has considered leaving/incited people to leave. If the game isn't enjoyable for you anymore then you have every right to quit. But it is frustrating. Especially since there is nothing I can do about it because the drama doesn't involve me.

So yeah, bottom line: It's really irritating that random BS is screwing up my good time.

I did warn you that this was all about me.

Comments

[goddessvicky.livejournal.com]

You don't know how sorry I am that things are getting messed up.

I desperately hope that things will get better. Desperately.

[crazy-lil-loud1.livejournal.com]

So yeah, bottom line: It's really irritating that random BS is screwing up my good time.

*giggles*
No idea what any of it is about but I have had many friends who have griped about the situation.
What can I say? If you get a lot of girls together to work on something it is bound to get catty and bitchy. It is just the way the world turns.
I hope you get to have your good time soon enough. If not, you can start writing things for me!

[jo_anne_storm]

I'm desperately hoping that the drama settles down. Desperately!

And I just realized that I'm echoing Vicky there...

[lyndsiefenele.livejournal.com]

There's still drama? Well then. I'm not in the loop, and I second your sentiments. Not that I even scene a lot...